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ahhh, love………what a wonderful feeling, don’t cha think? i can’t agree more…:)

i never thought i would be in this situation, ever..perhaps only in my silly dreams…no, i’m not in love but someone is in love with me…more like a crush i believe…

i’ve expected it all along but never thought it really is true. he calls me his ’sweet girl’, writes in his diary every time we meet and likes to walks past my place everytime i’m around…how sweet…

i don’t know how to handle this situation…people might misinterpret our friendship….but i know my boundry and i hope he does too…after all, i can’t control how people feel about me so let it be…the feelings will be gone soon, i hope..

as for the one i hold dear to my heart, i realised he has change a bit…he seems more relax and jokes a lot…and most of the times, he says the same thing again and again; "that’s why i love you"…i guess, that’s the way he expresses his feelings without risking his heart and baring his soul…as for me, i just ignored the remarks most of the times but lately, the words keep echoing in my mind…does he really mean it or is it just one of his (mean) jokes? gosh, i’m thinking way too much!

well, i’m actually in a middle of a course…it’s coffee break now, so i’ll write later…chow (for now)!!

finally the weather cool down again…what a relief! alhamdullillah.

for the past couple of weeks, i was sweating like crazy, guess that’s what contribute to my weight loss, he!he!he!

i’m okay with sweats, it’s only that i sweat a lot on the face!! guys, it’s a nightmare for girls okay? just think of all the hardwork to put a good make-up, don’t u think it would be just a waste of time then?..we were trying so hard to impress the one we love and at the end, we just terrified them with all the mudcakes on our faces…but if that truly happen to me, i don’t know..should i cry or should i laugh out loud?? guess, i don’t have the answer…yet

anyway, back to the wetaher.. it was blowing like crazy when i was on my way to my office….gosh, i was afraid that my umbrella might flew away with me still holding it….try imagining that!!!

no, i’m not complaining, not at all…in fact, i welcome the change in the weather…at least i won’t sweat like crazy for at least a week…

adios!

as my housemates were talking last nite, the issue of the burden of work load popped-up. i myself started to question myself; am i making the right choice to stay here??

honestly, i really enjoyed the second half of my stay here but recently i started to feel down, depressed somehow. well, as said by Richard Carlson in his book "don’t sweat the small stuff-for men", take the quirks with the perks…

i guess, it’s one of those days when you just suddenly feel a little bit down…and i think today is one of my bad days…:)

let’s face it, life is not a bed of roses but that doesn’t mean we are doom to lead an unhappy life….

what a life….

finally, it was my turn to be evaluated…god, was i nervous!

i was sweating like crazy man but thank god the kids were all well-behaved. i was surprised myself

but anyway, all went well but the waiting of the verdict was a real pain…

we talked for almost an hour, well he did most of the talking anyway but i learned quite a few. i learned the hard way but i think it was worth it. after all, i’m here to learn, to continously improve myself from time to time.

i’m grateful to have him as my boss coz i know i can learn a lot of things from him, mostly through personal observations. besides, i’m surrounded by geniuses from various fields. yeah, there’s much to learn here…and i know i should take the opportunity. as the saying goes, opportunity never knock twice so put your best foot forward!

it has been a fruitful day today and it gave me a new insight of my life here…there’s much to improve as told by ‘doc’ and i believe i can do it…

i believe i can fly!!

it just happened…i could sense their mockery behind my back, taste their ugly sneer…oh my god!!

the feelings were so unbearable, i just can’t wait to get out of there. not all of them are like that but one particular guy really stands up among the crowd.

just because he’s one of the brightest students doesn’t mean he has the right to be so bold in my presence….he makes me sick!

i don’t like hating people, it is SO negative but i can’t help from feeling so…

i don’t know what i’m gonna do about this…so clueless….

i’m down with flu…and portugal lost to germany…

perhaps i need a change in luck…oh, i don’t know….

i have no idea what i’m wariting at this moment, blame the medication, they messed up with my mind…

later guys!

last thursday night, i ‘received’ an omen that something bad might occur to me tomorrow…it came true but it turned out to happen to my dear little brother (sigh) .

he was involved in an accident somewhere at BK area and he broke his left leg. he was on his way back after sending my dad to work when the accident occured. he was riding the motorcycle while the other party was driving a car.

what really pissed me of  is that the other driver, a man in his mid 50s pulled over just to scold my brother. i wonder if he is as blind as a bat as my brother was in freaking pain, with a broken leg and bleeding all over.  god, i never thought that such people exist!!

i was about to lose faith in human good nature (literally speaking) when i heard that it was due to the golden heart of a good samaritan that my brother was sent to the hospital. god bless you, sir, god bless….

as for this matter, we leave it in the hands of the authority and our lawyer…all we care now is my brother well-being…i hope i can be by his side but i have responsibilities to shoulder. luckily my elder brother is willing to watch over him…thanks for being so understanding, big bro.

well, as the saying goes: life is like a boomerang, what goes out returns so…

till then, adios!

finally, it is out in the open

well, at least for the both of us…he was down that day and i happened to be asking at the wrong moment. not to mention, i took it personally…but anyway, it’s okay now and we are on talking term and i honestly hope, we’ll stay friends forever…

people say that when you’re in love, he’s the first person that comes to your mind when you open your eyes in the morning….is that true?? it did happen to me but logically thinking, i was mad at him throughout the previous day so i believe that explains why he popped into my mind the very next morning when i woke up…phew. err, does that make any sense to you?

you know, i tend to talk in circles but hey…:) it just that i’m happy we worked it all out and he did say he wants to have more chit-chats like we used to have….how i long for that…i really missed that moments….

anyway, at least that is something i can be happy about for today and i thank Allah SWT for that…

till nest time…chow.

how i hate this feelings!! this week my boss, let’s call him ‘doc’, is going to observe me for some sort of evaluation. if that day is your ‘lucky’ day, then all the best pal.

not that i’m saying he’s a monster or anything but i’ve never been evaluated before!! okay, that would be a lie. i was once evaluated by senior manager but hey, that guy is a friend so that doesn’t count okay?

what am i gonna do when he comes for me? aaarrgghhh!!!

i hate this…chow!

someone i hold dear to my heart turns a cold shoulder towards me and i am hurt, a bit….i wonder why?

he doesn’t have to say a thing but he obviously shows it…it makes me really want to choke him….

i admit, lately i am a little bit busy with my works…the papers are piling up on my tables, all the records need to be filed, etc, etc.

there are so many questions i want to throw at him: what did i do? can’t we just talk it over? why is it so hard for you to come and discuss it with me? why are you doing this?

god, how i want to murder him…