viva forever
to know that he is here, breathing the same air, standing on the same earth, really shaken me to the bone…my heart shattered for the hundredth time…..
i thought i was okay, able to accept things the way they are meant to be but i guess, i was wrong, dead wrong… a simple song could trigger my shaky tear dam to burst….a simple word could easily drown me in a flood of memories, a flash of thought could stab my heart mercilessly, make me bleed for my lost love….
i’ve known from the very beginning that he is not mine to keep yet my heart was so stuborn…..fight for it, it once said and now, i have to endure the pain which doesnt seem to go away….
i admit that at times, i missed him so much that it hurts….so many tears i cried, too much pain inside…..it feels like i’m fighting an unending war in which i’m slowly losing…
people i know moves on with their lives easily yet i am struggling to accept that my love is no longer mine….i’m hanging to every memories we had together, refusing the facts that things arent the way they used to be….it is so damn hard…..oh god, it is so damn hard….
