i am into indonesian songs lately…
it started harmlessly by listening to some popular indonesian songs but it was when my friends introduced a band from indonesia, j-rocks and all those powerful other artistes with poetical songs that i started to listen more to indonesian songs.
i find their songs are beautifully arranged with deep meanings which really deliver the message.
well, some people are just that talented 
okay, things didnt go well as i thought…
i hate it when things just wont abide my wishes…
haiyaaah!!! the first day was a disaster, the 2nd day went a bit okay, the 3rd day during my 1st observation with my mentor was…i didnt prepare a lot of things so i gave a bad impresion to her…how ambarassing as a graduate!!!
the first week was a nightmare….i slept around 3-4am throughout the week….gosh this whole thing is a torture, mentally and emotionally….i am exhausted….
i am now at betong, a small town. more to be a mini town according to my standard.
one of my former students contacted me and it was nice….
after a while, he asked about him…what happened between us….
he heard that we are no longer an item…
wow! what a question….i asked him of what he knew….
i’m just so tired playing games with him about my love life so i told him the truth…..i told him it pained me to lose him, the first guy i ever cared about…however, i told him tha i am not hating anyone for the sad ending of my relationship….
talking about it made me sad again…all this while, i thought i am 100% over him but i now i think i still need time…
the pain is still there but not as painful as it was….it hurts a bit but i’m trying to get over it..he sounds ok when i called him and i am glad he’s doing okay…
pls god, give me strength…..
