life could be so damn hard difficult
bitterness will detroy me, i know that. it is just so darn difficult when it comes to the matter of the heart. rationally thinking, if he pops the question, i would surely let him down and yet when he says he has found the one, i dont feel happy for him….why huh?
i want him but i dont want him either….i am happy when we are close yet i dont want our friendship to be more than that….i prefer to be on a friendly terms with him…perhaps i am afraid to lose someone as good as him….
