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Sutera Kasih

Kian lama terpenjara
Mencari makna cinta
Dalam ungkap kata bersulam dusta

Bila gerbang rahmat terbuka
Menjelma cinta suci
Sehalus dan selembut sutera kasih
Terbentanglah tersingkap kebenaran
Terlerailah terbenam kepalsuan
Tuhan pada-Mu ada kedamaian
Diribaan-Mu kebahagiaan
Tiada lagi rasa kesangsian di hati
Cinta Mu cinta tulus suci murni
Kasih-Mu nan abadi

Bertautlah bercambahlah cinta
Mengharum dalam jiwa
Menemukan kerinduan syahdu
Pada yang Maha Esa

Sutera kasih membelai
Membalut kelukaan itu
Sutera kasih melambai
Mengisi kekosongan pengharapan

Rela pasrahkan kehidupan
Mengharungi cabaran
Rintangan perjalanan di hadapan

Doa dan titis air mata
Mendamba sutera kasih
Agar terus bersemi selamanya

i am a hopeless case when it comes to the matter of the heart….a gone case if i may say so. i like this guy, lets call him AS. we never actually met but we used to keep in touch via internet. as we corresponded, i got to know him better and better….i realised that i was ALWAYS loking forward to his replies…once i read his name in the inbox, i would smiled from ear2ear….the feelings were beautiful….i was happy, truly happy…and i kept all his emails for no obvious reasons….

as he always updates his site, something like friedster, i am able to keep up with his life….not everything but part of it. i lurve reading his thoughts on issues pertaining to life…an eye opener, truly….

i stopped msgg and e-mailing him….once i knew he has already found someone, most probably his future mrs…not that i just straightaway stopped all correspondence but gradually…my heart felt a twinge of sadness and by that i had to admit to myself that i like him…a lot.

at the same time, things came up in my academic life, seriously..i know it was a silly excuse but i had to give a reason. i didnt say it to him but i posted it on my site. it was hard for me to not contacting him as it had become a habit of mine….

as i write now, the one he is waiting for, has not given him the answer; to accept him or not….i am in no position to give opinion but i hope she is worth it….as a friend, i am praying that he will find happiness in his life…perhaps, we are meant to be friends, period.

aku redha ya allah…moga Engkau mempertemukan aku dengan yang lebih baik darinya…amin….