…heartaches…
i am a hopeless case when it comes to the matter of the heart….a gone case if i may say so. i like this guy, lets call him AS. we never actually met but we used to keep in touch via internet. as we corresponded, i got to know him better and better….i realised that i was ALWAYS loking forward to his replies…once i read his name in the inbox, i would smiled from ear2ear….the feelings were beautiful….i was happy, truly happy…and i kept all his emails for no obvious reasons….
as he always updates his site, something like friedster, i am able to keep up with his life….not everything but part of it. i lurve reading his thoughts on issues pertaining to life…an eye opener, truly….
i stopped msgg and e-mailing him….once i knew he has already found someone, most probably his future mrs…not that i just straightaway stopped all correspondence but gradually…my heart felt a twinge of sadness and by that i had to admit to myself that i like him…a lot.
at the same time, things came up in my academic life, seriously..i know it was a silly excuse but i had to give a reason. i didnt say it to him but i posted it on my site. it was hard for me to not contacting him as it had become a habit of mine….
as i write now, the one he is waiting for, has not given him the answer; to accept him or not….i am in no position to give opinion but i hope she is worth it….as a friend, i am praying that he will find happiness in his life…perhaps, we are meant to be friends, period.
aku redha ya allah…moga Engkau mempertemukan aku dengan yang lebih baik darinya…amin….
